| Jul. 5th, 2009 @ 09:39 am kay lolo, lola at sa bunso nilang anak... |
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Current Mood:  blah
Back in july, in caleruega, where the retreat master told us to put closures to our problems and questions...I did, for one and that was I have forgiven our close relatives in everything bad and mean they did to us. There was some kind of smooth breathing coming into my lungs not until they push my ego to be mad at them again...they strike again, put words that were unacceptable, carry actions that were selfish, they are still the same. I was hurt again for the nth time and my forgiveness just fade away, it disappeared. It's her birthday celebration today (yesterday is her real birthday), and all I wish is for her to change even for the last minute of her life. She is 75, and in those 75 years or less, I haven't seen her kindness, true and genuine kindness. When I was in highschool I always pray that someday I'll learn to forgive them, God granted me the grace to do so, but they keep on bragging us and my hatred keeps coming back... Now, I am praying that one day, hopefully tomorrow, she, her husband and her daughter will realize that they are super duper wrong, that they are sinners and that they may accept the humility and sincerity they never had. May everything ends well for all of us. |
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