CONDEMN MAGUINDANAO MASSACRE!!!

I am angry, angry why some people turned out to be animals, animals that were conquered by evil...

For money and power, these evils disguised in human form can brutally and barbarically killed innocent lives,

Another hard part of this heinous crime is that the President of this country, some military persons are protecting these evils!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone's heart has been crushed by this crime,

I don't believe in the justice system of this country,

But I believe more in karma, poetic justice will be served!!!

In the shadows of my brother's fame,

pressured to be like him was everywhere,

bright, talented, sweet, smart,

comparison, contrast even the skin tone they see, I must say

on a good light I gain friends, though they befriend me to be closer to him,

that was in our younger years...

Now, I am in the shadows of my brother's fortune,

pressured to have a great job like him was obvious no matter how they denied it,

good money, nice office work, nice company,

comparison, contrast of fate

on a good light I am challenge to come out good, great if ever,

But I can never deny that I will forever be in my brother's shadows...

Life's intricate details come in surprise, you have never guessed or imagined about it, it will just poof into your face, the more you think and plan about it the more it never came but for others the more you think and think about it the more it comes true. Maybe the difference between the two, is the former is too fast, too rush thinking things over and too idealistic that it loses the tinge of realism while the latter is a way of boxing your dreams into perspective where you have the guts to do everything step by step just to materialize that dream, it is a slow but sure process. Maybe, the latter is better, since during the journey you've got to realize and accept things the way it is, appreciate life for what it is not for what it will become.

Frustration comes when your lifestyle is at stake,

so you have to step backward,

find simplicity and humility,

start all over again,

with the rocks and ice and dinosaurs,

go back to where you used to be,

or just simply start your life from the bottom, literally,


so that only one direction is your option...

it's going up, up, up...


take it one step at a time, take it in proper order,

feel every step's emotions

so that you'll be worth it of life's gratitude...

Aware of its UNCERTAINTY,

It is not its flaw but its sole feature,

It leads me now to frustration where all the expectations are fading,

and all the plans are breaking...

I am not losing hope but trying to find ways in the most desperate way,

I am worse at this moment, because contentment seems so remote,

Maybe I should go backwards and find again the "real" things that made me calm, happy and relax,

Maybe I'll find again and embrace once more, contentment in this essence of such stage...

Let His will be done...

For whatever happens, that is the plan of God,

For whoever fulfills or breaks my way, that was already written,

For whatever it takes, come hell or high water...

The will of God will be unveiled, will be executed, will be in me, for me, within me

Patience always comes in oblivion, it is something I haven't engraved permanently, it is the thing that should rest in my heart but always lack the genuine charm to stay. An acceptance of patience will always be like a pilgrimage, a long walk towards something worth it. Let patience be with me!!!

The greatness of being young is having a list of your dreams you wanted to fulfill for the next years of your life, the younger the more you have time to think things over and engage into planning the best step to be taken for it to achieve with shining glimpse and valor of honor. But the hidden dreams that come spontaneously gripped your mind into complex thoughts, confusing matters and indescribable torture of erratic burden. It crippled your heart like a baby that never ceases to cry whenever in pain, it matches the idea of your next wonderful years and even surpassed the idealism of your already planned life...

A hidden dream is cruel once it landed but it has been the best thing I have ever seen in my life, it gives me surreal but tangible perspective, it nourishes my mind and it keeps me believing that life is great with surprises, surprises that have been already been written since forever.

My hunches will change when I get a work, maybe...

I know what I wanted to do, to continue learning...studying...learning...

i wanna learn more, more, more!

The reward of being single is having the chance to go wherever you want,

The pleasure of being young is having the opportunity to do whatever you want,

Now, it is just a matter of where and when you will follow your hunch, or will...

I don't know where I am heading, but I know I should follow my heart, yet I don't wanna experience the scenario of falling...(though I know sometimes you have to fall)

The visions aren't clear but one thing is for sure, there is something planned for me, bigger than I could ever imagine...

Your untimely demise brought me strength in times of solitude,

It bestowed upon me the chance to be independent and self-reliant,

The resilience and patience came spontaneously because I know no man with his biceps could save me from any danger or pain...

But even though I know how immense this good impact of your demise to me,

I boil down to some questions...

What's a daughter without a father?

What's a kid without a leap of a father?

What's a teen without a protective father from all the suitors?

What's a bride without a father giving away his little girl to someone who mirrors her father a lot?

I am half as much as I wanted to be whole,

I feel alone as much as I wanted and chose to be happy and contented,

I am my father's daughter and that is the hardest part.

The opening of my plan for the new chapter in my life messed up. It ruined the momentum and gave me grief that I can mourn forever, but suddenly I thought that the mess it made is just a little kick on my back from someone that loves me the most.

I want to rush things so fast in this new chapter, try to forget the past and decided to leave for sometime, but these decisions were wrong, entirely wrong and could turn me into one great green monster with all the selfishness in the world.

Now, let me not plan what is ahead, let me just see the framework but the details I leave it to You LORD...

Your guidance all this time keeps me alive, it is in Your Love that I will live...

Glory to GOD!!!

Life is too short,

and I chose to be happy as much as I can...

The rush of the water upon your knees,

the height that towers and triggers my smile,

i won't deny, but not reiterate either...

you seem to be the.....?

Sinong lider ng isang pamayanan ang makakapayag na gawing tapunan ng basura ang 3 bayan sa kanyang probinsya, na sa kalaunan ng pagtatapon ng mga basura ang sariling bayan ang malulugmok sa delubyo na ganti ng kalikasan? (Sana man lamang ay may programa, tama at epektibong programa sa proper disposal ng mga basurang sa aming bayan ay tinatapon.)

Bakit papayag ang isang lider na mangyari ito sa kanyang bayan?

PERA, pera, pera!

Sana ay magising ang mga Rizaleno sa ka-swapangan ng gobernador na ito!!!

When everyone is diving into...

pool of nurses,

shadow of antagonist of dirty politics,

bulk of offices in corporate attire,

season's famous and in fashion clothes (that when you go out, everyone is wearing the same style),

Tita Cory's magic, I was mispelled...

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a stubborn head from a shallow mind's perspective,

a faithful heart from a deep and understanding love,

Being different doesn't always mean wrong, it doesn't envelope the capacity of a person to grow stronger and bigger for herself and for others...in fact,

The one who is different from the crowd is the one that could create a massive difference, an immense positive difference...

So don't get us wrong, understand us as we understand your same same behavior.

May we all be well together!

If the end of the world can now be counted with my bare fingers, let me take the path where it is less traveled by, let me join the bunch of out-styled people who dare to be different in time where everyone seems to go fishing in the same sea with the same hook. I took a turn once upon-a-four years ago, maybe another turn is not bad.

May God guide me and direct me towards the path that I really should take.

GLORY TO GOD!

Crushed heart, in hiatus emotions, invisible sight,

I feel bad, I feel selfish as I remain standing with a point in my sarcastic life not to dwell anymore with those you know you cannot withstand the polymerism of its facade and its brittle and too overwhelmed "sacred" body. Too harsh? Let me put it this way, I am not one of them, I don't belong in their style, I just don't fit with them...

I'm sorry if I cannot give a hand, but I promise I'll stay with what I know is good.

One step at a time.

This what God is trying to say to me, this is what fate trying to orchestrate, and yes, I should flow like the river that must be hit with the right stones at the right time.

I am 20, too young, to put in my hands a fast-phased life, too young to engage in a battle so furious in natural havoc, but young enough to teach a valuable lesson, and that is learning how to wait to life's perfect timing, learning to go with the river and go with its flow. Maybe, this is just a continuation of the lesson I have learned before, to laugh the small things off... God wants me to be steady, and I will because He let me.

I prayed after I passed that He'll forever guide me and direct me to where I should be. Now, maybe because of too much excitement and euphoria, I forgot to slow down, and think things over and laugh it off...
He never fails me in opening my eyes to the mistakes or shortcomings I will start, He will never fail you, never, just trust Him.

A poignant journey, emotionally drained scenarios, but there are so many things I have learned and gained.

First, friends...where on earth could I find the words to describe how blessed I am to have wonderful college friends, dormmates, classmates, professors and everyone else I met. They are a sure shot of friends who will stay forever. College could be as triply hard as highschool, too many lows but I survived because of them. I became independent on facing problems but I became dependent on their support and love. I will forever be thankful for their existence.

Second, I almost find myself. I discover who I am and continuously finding myself and its beliefs. I've learned how to stay and stand with my decisions and take risk on certain uncertain things.

Third, my course and my school. Being a tiger was meant to be. I am average student but there is something special on being a tiger. Humility, that what's a tiger is all about. Our sharpest teeth was used not to scare anyone but to help us conquer our fears and take the triumphs without anyone being hurt. My course came from a blackbody that could not reckon others opinion but in the end, like what anybody believes, whoever is being down,shall rise above the ashes...

But most of all, I thank God for writing a wonderful college journey!

Can't wait for the next chapter.